A Long Way Home

These last few months have been…tricky.  I recently had the big realization that in this last year I’ve done a few things that have ultimately thrown me off course.  OK, maybe not completely off course but more like down a side road that I didn’t intend to go down.  Or maybe I did…maybe it was a necessary part of getting back home.

 

This year has been so heavily focused on work.  Building and rebuilding the spiritual business that I’ve had since 2006.  In 2006 I wasn’t doing a lot of stuff online.  I’ve gone from doing a reading or two here and there to now having reading clients throughout the week each week, having regular intuitive coaching clients each month, teaching regularly, and working on building up a line of stuff that I really love…ebooks, ecourses, and teaching materials.

 

At the end of the day my love is teaching people how to live a better, happier, more charmed life through spirituality, and yes, even magic.

 

Magic.  That’s where things got off the rails.

 

I started out 2013 with two things in mind:  to build up my business into more of a business and to focus more on helping people actually change their lives.  When I thought about those things around the end of 2012 I found myself confronted with the fact that I was largely sabotaging myself in both areas.

 

I was doing a lot of preaching to the choir.  Pagans and witchy folks are a curious lot.  They want to learn but they want to know what they already know, you know?  😉  In my 25+ years of experience in the Craft I’ve come to learn that Pagans are not the easiest to teach new things to.  And I say that as a Pagan!  But it’s true.  We know what we know, we believe what we believe, and until something really earth shattering happens to change either of those things, we tend to not listen to anything we’re told/attempted to be taught.

 

Pagans {many, though certainly not all} listen even less if the words “new age” or “metaphysics” are attached to something.  These things tend to get written off as fluffy bunny bullshit, which is a shame.  There is a lot of powerful wisdom to found under the soft exterior and pretty package of those things.

 

So here I was, leaning to the new age side of things more and more because I knew, from the standpoint of teaching and running a business, it was the way to go.  It was also the way my own spirit was going.  I found that my witchy work wasn’t doing it for me anymore.  I was feeling a bit jaded and like there was something missing.  I felt like things weren’t balanced at all and I had no idea where to go to get the balance back on track.

 

That was when I shifted things personally, then professionally, and eventually having to deal with the whole issue of “the grass isn’t greener” syndrome.  I was starting to feel a little like something ELSE was missing now {this is all something that I have discovered more and more in the last few weeks as I’ve been taking another online biz course}.

 

I had to start working to take the new age and Buddhist practices I’d gravitated toward and find a way to blend them with the Craft practices that have been part of me for well over half my life.

 

As I’ve started to come back to my Craft practice I’ve discovered a few things.  The big one is that all the things I have learned in the last 10 months about mindfulness, mindshifts, Universal Laws, working with the ego, and working with energy for healing and manifesting {without spells and rituals} have been unbelievably powerful tools to bring me back to where I needed to be.   I feel like now I REALLY have figured out part of what was missing a little less than a year ago when I decided it was time for a change.  Now more than ever I feel the passion and the drive to blend the two.

 

I felt compelled to start getting back to my witchcraft roots by putting together a Samhain altar this weekend, something I’ve been thinking about doing for a week or so but I hadn’t actually done.

 

 

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Doing this was amazingly cathartic, oddly enough.  I had to go digging around in boxes and storage totes that I haven’t looked inside of in 10 months.  I was finding things that I haven’t touched since last December and holding them in my hands felt like that coming home you hear so much about.

 

I found my large Excalibur dagger, the one I often used in place of a sword in ritual, and when I took it out of its sheath and held it for the first time I felt an awakening.  I could truly feel that extension from my arm, the energy being drawn from my body into the dagger and out into the space in front of me, that I had to put it down because I felt so overwhelmed for a second.

 

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I took out my black scrying mirror, part of a spirit communication tradition I have at Samhain that I’ve done every year since I was about 23.  The mirror I use now is one I bought in Salem sometime around 2oo2 {I think} at my favorite store in town, Nu Aeon.  I carefully unwrapped the black silky fabric that keeps it covered from daylight just with the intention of giving it a quick look.  It did travel 3,000 miles back in January after all, and I haven’t looked at it since.  Much to my surprise I didn’t just look at the mirror but I was instantly pulled in with visions of sigils and symbols carrying energy and messages.

 

I knew my psychic ability had grown since last year {again, thanks to all the work I’ve done with meditation and visioning} but I had no idea just HOW much it had grown!

 

Now I’m ready for Samhain and I’m ready to rededicate myself to the path of the Witch, but also ready to dedicate myself to the path of the Shamanic Witch, the walker between world, ALL WORLDS.  Within seen and unseen, the magical and mundane, the witchy and the new age.  It’s time to bring all these technologies together and it’s time for more people to embrace the whole kit and kaboodle, as they say.  Together these things CLEARLY work wonders!

 

 

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All of this has brought me to a point where I realized I needed to take a bit of a step back, or maybe more of a sidestep, and scale back my business a bit for the time being.

 

I removed all my healing services with the exception of my crystal prescriptions which you can now find here.

 

I waitlisted coaching for the rest of the year but I also refined my offerings.  I now offer a monthlong program called Goddess Activation and I’ll be offering my Soul Biz Clarity Sessions.  I also plan to expand my spiritual biz offerings in 2014.

 

I will be opening up 5 Soul Biz Clarity Sessions in November/December, so be sure to get on the waitlist if you’re interested since they will be first come first served.

 

I am still teaching my Talk To Your Angels course starting the end of this month.  I updated the course and now I’m offering Angel Communication Practitioner certification.  {yup, I’m accredited now!}

 

That pretty much means that I’m just doing readings, like my Halloween + Samhain readings, which I’ll always do, and making more room and time for me to focus on myself, my personal practice, and my health {which has been going downhill this year}.  I’m not taking any more business classes after I finish the ones I’m in now because I really don’t need them.  I’m doing just fine.

 

What I AM going to do is spend 2014 more focused on bringing together metaphysics and magic/witchcraft {call it what you will} and creating more digital products and programs {ebooks, ecourses, meditations, etc}.  I enjoy doing one on one work but my true passion is writing, creating, and teaching.  And since I’m much more of a “do more of what you love and less of what you don’t” kind of girl, I’m going to focus more on the things I love the most, and that’s creating digital products.  And blogging!!  More blogging!!

 

I’ve also been talking about wanting to create a membership community which I’m going to do in 2014 as well {even though I said I was going to do it this year but it never felt right…now I know why}.

 

This was all a long journey to come back home.  I’ve come back home to my Goddess filled, witchy self who is now stepping more into a place of power, really owning both the path of the Witch and the path of the shamanic, new age, Buddhist minded manifester.  It’s also paved the way for me to start working on a new book that I can’t WAIT to be able to really dive into and focus on.

 

But then, what did you expect?  It IS the Witching Season after all!

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  • Dawn Brierley
    October 7, 2013 at 8:43 am

    🙂 I am so happy for you Jess because I can feel the contentment and peace you have found now, yet the buzzing air of excitement and inspiration. Sometimes going off track is the best thing we can ever do to bring us to exactly where we need to be, which can like in your case and in mine (I've been there too sister!) can look similar to where we set off from. You are listening to your heart and soul, and that is a powerful thing in itself. I look forward to seeing you continue to grow and bloom as you spread your magic x Lots of Love from one Witch to another who has also come full circle <3 <3 Many blessings to you xxx

  • Dawn Brierley
    October 7, 2013 at 8:43 am

    🙂 I am so happy for you Jess because I can feel the contentment and peace you have found now, yet the buzzing air of excitement and inspiration. Sometimes going off track is the best thing we can ever do to bring us to exactly where we need to be, which can like in your case and in mine (I've been there too sister!) can look similar to where we set off from. You are listening to your heart and soul, and that is a powerful thing in itself. I look forward to seeing you continue to grow and bloom as you spread your magic x Lots of Love from one Witch to another who has also come full circle <3 <3 Many blessings to you xxx