Dealing with the "G" Word

One of the subjects that always seems to be a pressing personal quest when you're on a different spiritual path is dealing with the words and terms that we use to connect to and define the Divine.  Do we call it The One, Source, Spirit, God, or Goddess?  Does it even matter?  I think it does, to some extent, because as little children we often associate a certain image or figure with the idea of God.  If you were raised in a Christian faith you tend to have some form of Jesus in your mind when someone says God even if your actual spiritual path is completely different now.  It's sort of mental knee-jerk reaction because it may have been a seed planted and cultivated for many years when the soil of our spirit was quite fertile and pliable.  So I think that as we awaken to the fact that we are truly spiritual beings have a human experience and not the other way around we do come to a point where we have to figure out how we really deal with the "G" word.

I've talked before about how when I was little I was sort of raised Catholic.  I wasn't dragged off to church kicking and screaming, in fact I had to ask my Mom to take me to church because neither of my parents cared to go on their own.  However, as a kid in CCD classes, it was required that we attend a certain number of services during the year.  I always loved going to Sunday morning service because it seemed so grand, which is one of the reasons it wasn't much of a surprise to me later to find I was drawn to spiritual practices that involved various forms of ritual.  But one thing I never liked, especially as I got older, was what Father Gorman, the pastor at my church, would say.  I knew early on that Catholicism wasn't for me but I still loved going to church.

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As I got older and had begun practicing Wicca in my teens, I stopped feeling comfortable with the term "God" in favor of "Goddess".  I really still had no idea what the meant for me; did it mean there was a woman sitting in the sky instand of a man who was watching over my every move?  Why did it matter if it was male or female?  Keeping in mind I was about 13 at the time, the internal discussion makes sense.  But I talked myself out of using the word "God" almost completely.  And if I did use it, it was always coupled with the word "Goddess".Jump ahead almost 25 years to now and I find myself coming to the end of another dialogue with myself that's been going on for about five years or so.  Again I found myself faced with figuring out what the word "God" meant for me.  Truly God is different for everyone.  As they say "there are many paths to God but they all lead to the same place."  I didn't believe that when I was 13 or even when I was 25.  Today I believe it without any doubt in my mind or spirit.  I also don't have the animosity towards Christianity or Jesus that I did at 13 or 25.I don't agree with much of the church's teachings but that doesn't make the church my enemy like it did then, nor does it make every Christian my enemy like it did then.  I can't even begin to tell you how many nights and weekend afternoons were wasted debating religion in AOL chat rooms when I was in my early 20s.  And for what?  Very little; it never changed my mind or the minds of anyone else and often left me very angry.  Now I've adopted a "live and let live" spiritual attitude.  Beleive what you wish, just don't impose it on me or expect me to believe as you.  You walk your path up the hill to see God and I'll walk mine and we'll meet at the top.And as for Jesus...well I do believe there was a man who lived that taught peace, healed those he could heal, and who tried to impart harmony to those around him.  In my heart I have never felt he was the Jesus of the Bible {certainly not the King James or New American Standard versions, which are the two I've read}.  I do feel he was much more like the New Thought or Pagan spiritual priests we see today teaching about peace, love, and abundance.  He'd be one of us spiritual hippies, not a bible thumping Christian.But what about "God" as term today?

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Here's how I see it, and it's something that I figured out a while ago I think but just in the last month really got comfy with.  "God", as a term, doesn't matter.  God is everything.  God is The One, Source, Spirit, and even Goddess.  If I say "God, help me to understand this situation," as part of a prayer I could just as easily say "Spirit, help me to understand this situation".  Because for me God, Spirit, Source, and Goddess are all one.  Naturally if I want to specifically talk about a facet of God, like Buddha, Diana, or Kali, then I can call on that specific energy thread from the Universe.  But they are all chords in the single song of God.I started to come to terms with this understanding years ago when I started reading Doreen Virtue's books.  She always talks about God, and often she is specifically talking about Jesus (but often she's clear that she does mean Jesus and not Source).  When she would talk about God in my mind I would replace it with Goddess, because I was still so uncomfortable with the idea of "God" and always thinking that meant a bearded man in the sky.  Eventually that got a bit mentally tiresome and as I got down with the God/Goddess/Spirit as one idea and it resonated in my Crown and Solar Plexus chakras for me, I started to be more comfortable with using the word God.During January I've been watching Wedndesay and Sunday streaming services with the Agape Spiritual Center from the Los Angeles area and at first, because they always use the word "God", but they mean Spirit/Source unless they are being more specific, I had to settle into this conversation again.  And I'm becoming more and more comfortable with saying the word God but knowing that God isn't one being but the infinite energy of spirit and creation in the world and encompassing all the divind beings, spirits, and ascended masters.  How do you view God?Do you see the word "God" as something that implies a specific spiritual being?How have you made peace with the Divine Source?