When you’re sick and tired of what you’re seeing around you, it’s time for a change. And that change has to start from within.

I was at that point where I was sick of what I was seeing around me on a daily basis back in about February. I was tired of going on Periscope every day, I was sick of trying to get more clients for my coaching or teaching programs, and I was just burned out on the idea of simply being me.

That’s a shitty place to me. Who can you be if you’re not you, right? But when I asked myself that question I had to stop and look at who I was seeing in the proverbial mirror looking back at me. Was that even me anymore?

2015 definitely ended on a high note. By all online coaching entrepreneurial standards I’d had a successful year ending with a multiple five-figure launch of my Cosmic Wisdom Academy program with not much effort. I ran a Facebook ad for about a week and a half {and frankly I didn’t know what the hell I was doing with that} along with a fair amount of Periscoping about it and sending a pretty well-structured email series on it. But compared to the “big launch” stories I hear from other’s, especially about how you’re “supposed” to launch something big like I did, I didn’t put in any effort but still succeeded.

While I was immensely grateful for that, and still am, I wasn’t happy. Even though I knew that I should be celebrating, I was focused on what didn’t work. How I didn’t sell the program out. How despite giving so much to the program I was creating at a price that was ridiculously low I still had to field countless “whoa is me, I can’t afford you, so you’re too expensive” emails, which were irritating me to no end. How I wouldn’t be able to have time to do anything BUT this program for all of 2016 so I wouldn’t make any more money for a year…it was horrible.

This was all because I kept hearing the “seven-figure voice” in my head.

For those of you not in the online coaching and teaching biz, the “seven-figure voice” is the name I had given to the echoing call by business coaches the world over who are always urging you to strive for your six-figure year to create your seven-figure business.

I want all of these people to shut up and stop selling their snake oil. Not for me, because I’m beyond over them and can now see through their bullshit. I feel for all those other coaches and spiritual teachers who are starting out. Many of them buy into this idea of making money hand over fist while sipping green smoothies by a pool in Maui or in a hut in Bali while working four hours a week and spending the rest of the time meditating and making decoupage crafts with their kids.

Does the location dependent, tiny workweek with a big paycheck path exists? ABSOLUTELY! But it costs a pretty penny.

The reason those people are can work only a few hours a week and spend the rest of their time spelunking and snorkeling or doing whatever it is they do is because they spend a good chunk of change on having a team of people to do things for them. They have people reading and responding to emails, posting and maintaining their social media accounts, rolling out blog posts and newsletters, and taking care of the books and nuts and bolts of their biz.

Now, I know this might sound like I’m bitter because I didn’t have that in my own business. That’s not at all the case. The only thing I got bitter about was the lack of transparency behind this dream that many of these coaches and teachers sell…a dream I bought into and one that many others are spending thousands of dollars buying into right now as we speak.

So anyway, back to me in the proverbial mirror.

I don’t need a six-figure or seven-figure business. Would I LIKE multiple seven-figures? Sure! Without it, I won’t ever have my Wolf of Wall Street yacht! But I don’t NEED any of that.

 

 

I didn’t want to spend 2-3 hours a day coaching private clients. I didn’t want to spend 4 hours a day doing email readings anymore. I didn’t want to spend my days looking at the number of unread messages in my inbox grow. I was sick of going to bed at 2 am because I couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore!

That’s when I asked myself the hard questions…what do I really WANT to do? What is that I really LOVE to do?

The answers were clear.

I want to write. I want to teach. I want to speak. And at times, I want to do readings for people, but I don’t want to be under obligation to do it.

 

 

Over the next few months, I decided to phase out all my one-on-one stuff slowly. I was actually getting ready to launch a new program when I made the decision to close it all down. I just knew it wasn’t really something my heart was into so there was no reason to start it. I did one last round of live teaching and then decided I was done.

It was time to close it all down. To start over. To do my best to create a clean slate and to build an entirely new foundation.

I realized while doing this soul searching that I never made this clean slate move when I did my huge leap in 2013 from being focused on serving the Pagan community to serving more of the new age spiritual community. I never fully cut the ties I needed to so I could make the room for actual growth in the right direction.

That’s what I’m doing now.

My focus for the foreseeable future is going to be on blogging, social media sharing, and writing. I have several books I want to get to work on, and I want to be able to create freebies when inspired but without feeling any sense of obligation to sell anything.

For my long-term future this serves a huge purpose – it helps me rebuild my tribe and connect with the right people for me and what I do. It helps me disconnect from those who want what I no longer offer or what I have never offered. I’ll be able to lose the Negative Nancy’s and Debbie Downer’s who are always looking for excuses for why they can’t have what they want and who aren’t willing to take a chance on themselves and do something different.

 

 

If that sounds like you, I’m sorry sweetness, we’re never going to be friends, and I’m never going to be able to help you. I may be a witch, and I may be damn good at what I do, but some miracles can’t happen if everyone isn’t putting in their fair share of energy.

I’m excited. I feel free to do whatever I want again. To talk about things that I might otherwise feel I couldn’t because I didn’t want to lose money. To be able to take the time to myself when I need it without feeling guilty. To create whatever I want rather than creating for others in hopes of doing something they’ll give me money for.

It’s liberating to say no to shit you hate and to let go of people and projects that keep you small.

That said, in the weeks and months to come I’ll be rolling out all kinds of new things. I’ll be returning to Periscope, posting readings for the week ahead on Sunday’s, doing some free teaching with webinars, and I’m going to be working on putting together a super special something for the fall. It’s top secret for now, but you’ll want to keep an eye out, trust me.

I’ll be focused on doing what I love and hopefully, some if it will resonate with you and you’ll feel inspired to hang with me, share my stuff with others, and let me know more about how I can help you. Because helping people live spiritually and magickally empowered lives has always been the reason for why I do what I do. That’s never going to change.

But more memes…and pop culture references…there will be lost more of that.